white rose.

exactly one year ago a very close family friend of mine died. had known her all my life and she was one of the people who raised me to be who am. May she always be at peace. yesterday morning my mother found two baby doves that had fallen to the ground when they're nest had broken. Againgt my better judgement let my mother convice me that she took them home with her for their own good, and so that they may be well cared for.

later in the afternoon we baught a dozen white roses and braught them to the grave of the woamn who died a year ago. loved her very much. t hurt to visit her again because could remember every detail of the waiting room while she was dying .. at around 7am exactly one year ago her lungs exploded and she died of cancer.

Today at 7pm one of the baby doves died. My sister was out looking for medicine for them and my mother refuses to care for the well being of either of the doves. She is cold hearted and Bitter... infact she just left to go check on her precious house. when i told her it was dead she replied with go away i have to go to the bathroom... i begged her to care enough to bring the other to the humane society, her response was to slam a door in my face....

august is the worst month of the year and it always will be filled with misery and to top it off all of my friends are to busy to even talk to me.

wish i was dead with the baby dove, the wonderful fatima who helped raise me and my old neighbour who died august 14th 2007 around 8:30 am. The misery of august is awful and i wish i was dead and could be with the ones i love....

i know most of you probably have many worse things that have happened to you, and i am very sorry for all your loses and i pray that all of your loved ones are seated in heaven with god and a valley of roses and doves.