The Thoughts Of a Broken Man

http://soundcloud.com/mmmusic/willie-nelson-the-scientist....... listen and read

I'm a wreck I'm just going to flat out say it I'm a wreck i don't know what to do with my self anymore... i wanna talk about whats going on but i don't know how and too who..... I'm scared of life ever since i was a kid i dreaded this moment I'm in now I'm lost in this world I'm scared and i doubt my self I'm scared for the future.

i have two thing that keep me going my grand parents my grandpa my hero the man i look up to the man i want to be like when i get older..........All i want to do is make him proud of me proud of his grand son....Ever since I've lost faith in my father my grand pa has become my father i wanna be successful to make him proud and happy he's done so much for me it's the least i could do for him....

The other thing that keeps me going is.......Carolina she's what gets me through everything she makes me feel whole she is one reason why i wake up everyday even when i don't want to wake up anymore...... I'm scared if i don't move on to college ...... I'll lose her .........i don't want to lose her she means the world to me i love her so i try my hardest to do well in life for her because i want her to be proud of me too. She is my rock in this changing world and the only woman i love............

Right now I'm a lost,scared and broken man a shell of the former care free person i use to be. My mind is just polluted with the notion of failure and disappointment i pray that one day i may come back here and write about the bright side but for now this is..... The words of a broken man.