i have to gush.

he makes me not want to listen to my emo music.
and i feel so bad for the other guy, but..
i cant make myself love you.
and im sorry.
if i could, i would.
because you are really sweet.
but he gets me.
i think. i hope.
and he knows how emotionally delicate i am.
and he understands and...
maybe he accepts me?
i really hope he accepts me.
then again, ive felt this way before.
and it hasnt turned out well.
maybe...
i dont know.
but right now,
i just want to dwell in bliss.
for you i will. <3