After So Many MONTHS !!

Okay, so I guess, i haven't kept my word of trying to post a lot here, and even though I know not a lot of people read this blog, it's just a good way of of just letting out your idea's in whatever way possible. Your Troubles. Worries. Life Stories. Whatever. I guess i could honestly say that I just started writing again, because I find it more relaxing for me, a way to open up without really opening up, a way of just letting your ideas, your thoughts flow thorugh your fingers into the keyboards.

Recently, I had those mix emotions and I so really wanted to start typing ever since school ended 2 week ago. With my family; the usual feelings: stress with parents, frustrations with them, and babysitting. With my friends; it's kind of confusing. Another wave of feeling that we always go through. I guess, ever since 2 months ago, I started to change my views of situations. These days, I don't seem to care about what happening around me. I let go of feelings I knew was pointless and got me nowhere, and starteed feeling things I actually wanted to. I guess, when you learn how to let go of things, you learn to take up new things. When you learn how to let go of something, move on to another, especially if you know that you would never get it back. It's hard to let go of something so precious and special to you, but once you learn that sacrificing the things you love is a part of life, knowing that it will be with you in any other way is some of things you learn to appreciate. It's hard giving something up. It's even harder knowing that it's hard to let go. Letting go of what makes you happy for the sake of others, is given a reward far greater than happiness, but the true love of friendship that goes with you wherever you are.

Other things that are new, in a way is that I'm having a feeling ever since certain events, I haven't really been a good friends to others, especially when i was at the
Aside from my personal problems during my absence of writing, I've encountered problems of other people, more specifically confused people. Although I may not have been a good friend during that time, I truly understand what their going through. It's just a stage in life where you become confused, especially with your identity, God made you as you are, you are what you want to be because you have that choice to become that person, changing yourself instantaneously and becoming who your not be only makes you more confuse of who you are. Changing yourself to fit into socitey and what they expect you to be only makes it more confusing. People will like you for who you are, maybe not everyone, but to those who can see the goodness beyond what they want or what they need. Yet, we as we live our lives, we continue to discover our true selves, its probably the hardest mission we will ever go through, but time plays its part as well as having each other, to help us look for ourselves.

So I have so many other things to talk about but I guess I'll stop here. Hope you guys made sense of what I was writing, sometimes what I write nowadays don't make sense, but when I have time, I'll write more often lol. but here's a final message that I think could really summarize all those stuff that I was talking about.
Life Lesson learned today, is that "Friendship is beyond how we define it, but Friendship is the love that you gain and share with the world."
lol hope that makes sense to you, if not, please try to think deeper and inbetween the lines.